Volume 114: Rest in Isn't He Good!

On Saturday morning, I hiked up to the cross at camp. Just me, my journal, a pen and a small taser with 0% battery charge (just to make me feel safe ok). 

As I sat down, taking in a view I have seen many times before, I felt in awe of God. 

How beautiful!

Immediately, the lyrics to Phil Wickham's song, Isn't He Good, came to mind. Recently, I have been listening to this song multiple times throughout the day, and it's become an anthem for my days. 

"Isn't He good.
Isn't He great.
Isn't He faithful.
Look at my life. 
Look what He's done. 
Isn't He able. 
Isn't He good.
Isn't He great. 
Isn't He worthy. 
Oh He's worthy. 
He's worthy. 
Isn't He."

And up there, at the cross, I just started singing these words out loud (hopefully no one could hear...).

I felt immediately humbled. Our God truly is SO good. And He has been my entire life. 

As everyone knows by now, about two weeks ago, I decided that this will be my last summer at Camp Ozark. 

And, as everyone also knows... this was not an easy decision for me to make. 

I love Camp Ozark a lot - a place that has been a part of my life for the past 10 summers. A place that has stretched me, challenged me, and grown me in millions ways. A place that has a mission full of purpose and some incredible people working together to fulfill that mission.

But through a lot of prayer, conversations and discernment, I came to the decision of moving on to the next chapter, whatever that may be!

If any of you were to ask me today, "how are you doing?" and expected a real answer, I am not sure I could articulate my words...

I feel a multitude of emotions:

sadness for closing out a chapter...

excitement for what's to come...

fear of the unknowns...

freedom from the back and forth of trying to decide...

and peace about my decision.

Yet, despite all of my own personal emotions that waiver up and down throughout the day, the one constant is my confidence in God. 

Isn't He good. 
Isn't He great. 
Isn't He faithful. 
Look at my life.
Look what He's done.
Isn't He able. 

"Look at my life. Look what He's done. Isn't He able." For me, these are not empty words. They are completely true. My life is living proof of God's goodness, faithfulness and provision.

(MLK weekend did just mark ELEVEN years of Morgan and Jesus!! Woo hoo!!)

The past eleven years have been full of making decisions and change - two things that have not always been my strong suit... Yet, as God has continued to exercise the muscles of making decisions and trusting Him, I am finding it a bit easier. 

Easier to make a decision? Not quite...

But easier to trust Him. Easier to believe that everything will be okay. Easier to release a sense of full control. 

And easier to feel a sense of peace. This week, as I stood on Debbie's back porch, entranced by the overflown river speeding along, making a beautiful sound, and the sun setting behind it, I felt PEACE. Peace like a river, if you will... 

"I've got peace like a river in my soul."

The river is peaceful!!! Constant. Continuous. Flowing. 

Isaiah 26:3 says, "You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you."

Even though I am surrounded by unknowns and change to come, I can be filled with peace, as I trust God. For in Him, I already have everything I need. 

So how am I doing? 

I am doing okay! But my God is great!

As the thoughts come through my head....

What if I regret leaving?? 

What if I want to change my mind?? 

What if I don't find a new job??

What if...

What if God is exactly who He says He is!!

WHAT IF He will provide, as He always has, on His timeline, not mine!! 

What if He really is good!
What if He really is great! 
What if He really is faithful! 
Because look at my life!
Look what He has done!
He truly is able!

He truly is worthy!

Shoutout to Debbie's camp River house for it's beauty and quietness and stillness. A space to recalibrate and find rest!